I was struck with the weirdest thought on Sunday. I was putting my freshly laundered sheets onto my bed when I suddenly thought to myself, ‘This is the last time I’ll be washing my sheets here in California, and it made me a little sad! This weekend, my belongings get packed up into a moving truck, and they’ll be bound for Alabama. I bought a house directly across the street from my best friend, and I’m set to begin a new adventure.
It seemed like such an odd thought to have. I have actually lived in California for four years. I’ve said for the last four years that California wasn’t a place I really wanted to live and I couldn’t wait to move! So to have a pang of sadness seemed like such an odd reaction.
The truth is, I AM a little sad. While I’m so excited to be closer to Emily and positively thrilled over the fact that we can work on other Iron Porch projects, God brought me to California for a reason. For almost a year, I couldn’t figure out why but the fact is that I’ve had tremendous growth in the Lord during this time. I’ve had to rely on what God’s vision was for me instead of my own. He allowed me to be a part of the most amazing community of women from different backgrounds that all came together to study and grow in God’s Word through Bible study. He taught me how to truly lead a group of women. He also gave me a valuable lesson in learning to not always lead them and to let them teach me. He taught me that it’s never my time, but His. God also taught me how to be courageous in my witness for Him.
I’ve prayed for four years that I would find a church that was strong in the Lord, fearless in their declaration of God’s glory, and bold in the Truth. I found Doxa Church right before I’m leaving! It’s almost comical that by the time I was led there, it’s time to go. But the eight short months I’ve been a part of that church, I’ve been fed the biggest, fattest spiritual steak you could ever imagine! Pastor Scott has lived out Hebrews 5:12-14 and given me some serious spiritual food to gnaw on! I now have an even bigger arsenal in my spiritual backpack with which to boldly proclaim the gospel.
While I’m sad to be leaving, I must lean into what the Word of God says in Isaiah 1:19. The prophet proclaimed, “If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the good things of the land;” I am willing. I strive to be obedient. And because I do, the Lord will allow me to know what the good things of the land were in California and what the good things are in Alabama.
I’ll miss you, California!