Emily and I officially launched this ministry three weeks ago, and approximately one week after our first blog was written and posted, the devil decided he would try to derail my spirit. In my situation, he caused a little seed of fear of not being enough for ministry to creep into my thoughts. Rather than flick that seed to the concrete, I decided to water it with questions of worthiness. That seed began to sprout and just like that, I wasn’t sure what to write. I wasn’t convinced I was the one to help someone who was hurting. I didn’t know if I was going to be able to have an impact on my bible study group, much less my two daughters. I questioned what I was hearing from the Holy Spirit as I was reading the Word.
I held on to it–protecting that stupid seed like it was something special. Listen to me, friends…Satan is real. His demons are real, and spiritual warfare is real. And that master deceiver will use whatever he can to disrupt your calling and direction. He wants to crush the desire that you have to serve Jesus. He is constantly looking for ways to keep us from following God’s will and plan for our lives. We must be on guard and ready for this battle when it comes. The Bible says in 1 Peter 5:8, “Be sober [well balanced and self-disciplined], be alert and cautious at all time. The enemy of yours, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion [fiercely hungry], seeking someone to devour.” (AMP)
Thankfully, my God is not in the business of losing. Especially not to a fallen angel who believed that he was better than the great I Am who breathed the world into existence! Although the spiritual warfare around me is still going on, my face is to the ground in humbleness to Jesus Christ as I seek His divine protection. I’m covering myself in a blanket of prayer and I’m soaking my mind with scripture. My friends are defending me with prayers of intercession. And Christ will be victorious in this. I’m being refined, even now, by the fire.
Perhaps this is something that you are currently struggling through. A seed of doubt, fear, or anxiety has come into your thoughts. Maybe you don’t think that God can use you because of your past. Ladies, Jesus says you’re His masterpiece (Ephesians 2:10 NLT). God can and will use you BECAUSE of who you were and who you are now. His mercy and grace are written on our stories, and that’s certainly a story that God will use.
Let us pray for you that the seeds of doubt be swept away as you seek Christ to be used for His glory.